Too Comfortable...

Bed covers entitled "Pure Comfort"

I am way too comfortable, and that is the truth. The theme of "my comfort" has been resounding in my heart for the past several weeks. I know the Lord is getting at something in me with all of this as it just won't go away. Time after time I am hit with examples of living, breathing people who have chosen Christ's love over their own comfort... and are satisfied. To earthly eyes, denying your own comfort in order to love someone else doesn't equal satisfaction. In fact it equals a pretty miserable situation for you. However to heavenly eyes, denying your own comfort in order to love someone else leads to the most satisfying, joyful life you can live. Note that I did not say the easiest life you can live. Not easy, but satisfying. 

I'm reading Kisses from Katie. The biography of a 19 year old American teenager who, compelled by the Spirit, left the comforts of the States to move to Uganda by herself and love people. She is now 21, and the adoptive mother to 14 abandoned Ugandan girls. She is also the director of Amazima Ministries (http://www.amazima.org/ ) which feeds and sends to school nearly 1600 Ugandan children who would otherwise spend their days scavenging for food. Her story has sunk into some deep place of my heart and challenged me that the comforts I crave in my life are "mud pies" compared to to the satisfaction that comes from really dying and serving with Christ's love. I am way to comfortable. 

Katie Davis and one of her Ugandan girls

During the week I picked up Kisses from Katie, a good friend came down on a team to minister for a week with us here in Monterrey. I was talking to him over a peanut butter and jelly sandwich in the cement church at Caderayta one afternoon. I had heard through the grapevine that he and his wife were in the process of adopting a little boy. I began to ask about the adoption and through the conversation again was confronted with an example of denying comforts in order to love as Christ loves. 

God has laid on Chris and Julie's hearts to adopt, but not just any child. They have a fervent passion to adopt a little boy named Ryan who has severe special needs. As Chris started explaining Ryan's needs, I was overwhelmed with the thought of how much work, sacrifice, and love it will take to include him into their family. This boy's needs are so severe that it is likely that he will never even be able to say "thank you" to Chris and Julie. I asked Chris how he felt about all this. His only words were, "We can't wait to bring him home!" ... I started tearing up right there in the middle of the hustle and bustle of the Caderayta church. I wasn't wispy-eyed because of Ryan's story, I was affected by the extreme amounts of Christ's love I saw flowing through my friend for a boy he hadn't even met yet. This was Christ. This was true sacrifice. This was pure joy.

I am way too comfortable. 

Chris and Julie's Ryan

(For more about Chris and Julie's adoption look here: http://goingafterone.blogspot.com)

Katie, Chris, and Julie didn't choose the easy way or the comfortable way. They chose Jesus' way and are filled with joy and satisfaction.There is no better place to be.

Comfort is our biggest enemy. It can kill the soul, yet I find myself desiring more if it. I look for all sorts of ways to make myself comfortable and to keep that comfort. Jesus hasn't called us to a comfortable lifestyle. His life was nowhere near comfortable! True satisfaction in Jesus can't be found in our comfort, I'm convinced. 

"I am much more terrified of living a comfortable life in a self-serving society and failing to follow Jesus than I am of any illness or tragedy... Jesus called His followers to be a lot of things, but I have yet to find where He warns us to be safe. We are not called to be safe, we are simply promised that when we are in danger, God is right there with us. And there is no better place to be than in His hands." (Kisses from Katie, pg. xix- xx)

That is so true, Lord! There is no better place than to be in Your Hands! I want to be there, even if that means a loss of comfort. Help me to knowingly forgo comfort today, in order to love purely and totally as you love. Take away every point of selfishness and make me like you. I feel challenged with the burning desire to leave everything and follow You. I want to want to forsake it all. We are committed to you Lord Jesus, and not to our own comfort. Keep us from getting too comfortable. Amen.